today i got sick

haha ...me again... i fell very breathless yesterday ,,,,, took going to die soon ..... haha today morning come back for work want to go and see doc but very tired .... go for a nap around 5 plus want to go and see doc .... but go and meet just tell all ... until 7 plus come backto bedok to see doc .... so many medicane ... haha 7 of it

thought tat I can be ok

Today I went for the cell group meeting at CCK

First i take mrt which is the green line to jurong east and then I change to the red line... It remind me about u again... Cos that time I spend a lot time to take mrt for meeting u.... like when u at jurong point I will need to take mrt to Boon Lay to find u....

I still remember the first time we go and watch movie together at west mall cinema which is at Bukit Batok... After movie I got to rush for my last train to go home ... that's y I never send u home ... Actually that time I already wanted to tell u that i like u ... but then haizz... it's too late le ...

It really bring back me a lot of memories when I pass by that area .... like just now when I was in the train towards Jurong East ... I still remember tat I took the last train from Jurong East to Bedok, the train duration was like so fast, u know y ?? becos during the journey we are keeping smsing each other , tat's y the time goes so fast ...

But today when I board the train from Jurong East on the way back to Bedok,, I realise that the timing was passing damn slow...

Without u I realli dunno wat to do ... but then now u already have a stead le,, I also can't do anything ,, am I rite??

Just want to said out How i feeling now...

just dun want to see u so sad about r/s

Hope that u will be ok .... dun becos of r/s u become so sad.... I will wish u to be happy every day ... dun want to see u so sad .... pls take care of urself kk ...

If u have any problem, u can jux drop me a call ... remember ok.... I will answer ur call anything ...

Hope to hear from u ...

feel like tell u all something

29/8/09 12:34am
I just want to tell my frenz who came and see my blog… r/s is a very precious thing in the world…. I just dun want to see u all fight or get angry with each other ….
And I would like to tell u that wat u will find in r/s….. u will learn how to give in and take for each other & learn how to be strong...
I just want to said that having a r/s is not as easy as u think … starting from how u two know each other, later have click with each other , and later be together …. I know quarreling is a stage of r/s but pls remember tat u have pass a lot of stage in r/s … and then u want to give up ?

ur ans is no rite … pls try to give in and take to each other .. then ur r/s will be able to last long…..
Although I know not everytime must give in and take ….. but must also see wat's the situation ….
I going to sleep le...

End at 12:49am

just feel like blogging of wat i thinking about

dunno y I feel so sad, maybe I like her too much le … I just feel that I should put down everything and work all the way... u will never know when I will leave this world…

cos maybe one day when I'm at work and found a bomb that is active and that it… maybe one day u will see me in the front page of the newspaper…. Haha…and the last page of it …. Haha ….i just want my life to be as wonderful as possible ………

i still cannot forget u

Y Y?? Y I still can't give up on u ??

Cos everytime when I talk to u,, the feeling tat i have is like we have already known each other for very long...

If I can be ur bf,, I think I would be the lucky one and sure I will treasure u damn much and treat u as gd as I can treat u ... To mi, u r a "wu jia zhi bao"...

But haizz everytime when i see u and "him' (the photo) .... I will feel damn sad ...


Now, I'm trying hard to ask myself to let u go out of my life... Aaahhh,,, I jux wan a peaceful life.. Pls god can I have it? I hope to have a gf tat can understand mi and let mi treasure her.. hope tat i can found the second "U".

this is how i feel in this few day after i know

This is how I feeling now ….
I have told myself tat I had learnt a lesson..
Which is if u dun act fast … u will forever lost the thing tat u want it for so long ….

I felt damn sad when the moment u said tat u have “husband” (u should know who I'm refering to le). Since the day when I'm born till now,, U are the one tat gt the power to make me suffer till like tat,,
U know y ? bcos I jux found out tat I realli love u very much till I dunno who I am,, .. I know it's veri mushy but I'm jux trying to say out my feeling..

But then it's too late already,, Cos u already haf a "him".. I found myself tat I'm like a snail/turtle,,, moving so slow till I lost it "him" for jux a day late.. I myself dun have much confident,,. as I already being rejected 2-3 times of different ppl in my life ...

Sometime I feel tat I'm like an idiot tat pple always like to "play" around wif….

Today 13 Aug ... After I saw tat Pic in ur blogger .... I felt so ... dunno how to explain my feeling for now, but at least I can see how my "qing di" look like ... btw "he" is quite handsome le ... haha ...

As I am a person tat who dunno how to open my mouth and ask pple for r/s ...
I am a "ai qing bai ci"tat dunno how to ask pple for it.

i super super happy

I'm super super happy cos i have received a call from certis cisco... wahahaha...
Super super happy cos i thought they won't call me .... hehexx...
I'm so stress this week becos of SOME OF THE WORD tat people said..
But now i dun care wat people said ..

hope

Hope tat time can go faster... and the pain can go off and let mi start a brand new day.....
Keep telling myself tat I'm not a bad-looking person ... Cos i have been hurt by this word a lot ....
Hahaxx .... Hope tat someone will walk into my small small heart ..

Keep telling myself tat not to be so emo.. =D

i will not think of u anymore

This is the last blog tat i will write about u ....

Last Friday i went to meet u at tampines ... I thought of watching a last movie wif u ... but u have given me a feeling that u dun wanna to watch movie...
So in the end we went to meet ur friend at toyRus..... then one of ur frenz de frenz ask her whether tat mi is ur boyfriend... then ur frenz nvr ask u on the spot tat wat her frenz haf ask.. (a bit complicated here)

then we settle our dinner at cental cafe .... as the foodcourt is full of pple ,,, no sit le .. then u eat beef horfun, and ur friend eat the durian fried rice, i eat the shrimp and salted egg fried rice ... after tat we continue to shop as i want to buy some white t-shirt and we keep on walking ...

But in the end I nvr buy anything ... then we went over to ur frenz house, cos ur friend dun wanna to wear her office wear to KTV ...... we walk to your frenz house which is at Tampines area .... when we all otw to ur frenz's house ... ur frenz tell u the thing tat her frenz ask her just now... and I overheard wat u said ... ( is my taste so bad ?? ) .... dun u know tat ur ans hurt me a lot :(

After wat u said,, my mood totally change,, no mood to do thing .. after we have reach ur frenz's house ..... she went to change her outfit and we sat on chair in her room .... the room was so quiet .. we nvr talk much...

We meet yan at the ktv straighaway .... Yan keep calling me cos she reach there first .... but we are still at her frenz'a house ... so in the end we took a cab down .... We sing from 9pm to closing (3am)... but half way around 1 plus i already knock off as i have no more mood to sing liao ....
I laydown and rest for a while .... and I know this should be the last time tat I will call u out le... :(

about myself .....

I'm a quiet person... i seldom open my mouth to talk ...
My favourite sports is karate, swimming ,,,
I'm a lonely person .... i have no one to talk to .... I hope tat my dream will come true.... but u all should know my dream will definately won't come true ...

Cos I know tat I'm not tat handsome or wat .. .. but then I have a kind heart .. hope tat one day my dream gal will appear ...hmmm... =D

my story of her

U all should know that i have admire someone(her) for damn long le ...... she haf given me the feeling tat she is a very caring person ... tat is one of the reason y i admire her for 3 year .....

She was same school wif me ..... hehexxx... i also dunno how i began to like her de....lolxx.. I only know everytime when i saw her,, My heartbeat jump veri fast and my face will turn red.. omg.. aaahhh .. And i Promise tat I will not anyhow lost my temper infront of u... =D